One of the hardest parts of this kind of episode is that I become paranoid. And I know it so I watch for it, but it means I wind up not trusting myself about anything. But I also worry obsessively about interactions with other people that strike me as off in any way, assuming they are annoyed with me. And usually they aren't.
Today it is Dr. Body. He's been a little different when I saw him and then this email today. When I saw him I was just surprised because he seemed less thorough than he used to be. But he could have been busy and just hurrying; he said he was going to divide up catching everything up over a few appointments so that I don't get hit with a huge bill. I appreciate that. But it was weird and I was watching for weird because his practice was bought out by a hospital I don't like a whole lot. So if he is going to be less thorough because of that hospital I'm going to be less thrilled with him. But mostly it is my feeling like I annoyed him with an email that is bothering me and chances are very good I didn't and if I did I wrote it when I was manic and he knows perfectly well that I am sometimes manic and not as clear as other times.Friday, February 28, 2014
Paranoia
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It is really annoying going to the doctor these days. If you are going for a "preventative visit" then they really aren't allowed to talk about much of anything that is really wrong with you- then it is no longer prevention- and then they have to bill it. Primary prevention, which is useless, is free. Anything which is actually needed is not.
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