What not to do when you are a suicide risk

Thanks to mania I was awake pretty late last night.  I got hungry and sliced up some watermelon.   Which is when I got stupid.  I used a sharp but too small knife because I was hurrying/not thinking and it slipped. The result is not pretty.  I took off a nice sized and deep chunk of skin.  It didn't cut deep so stitches were out, but to put any dressing  on it requires folded guaze for protection (it hurts and bleeds with pressure) and then a big strip of tape around my wrist.  It's so very cute....It also is very likely to scary Dr. Mind to death as it looks like I've been cutting myself when you see the bandage.  That makes it also extra fun that I'll be seeing a zillion doctors who will all ask about this in the next few days.

Being a constant suicide risk has some downsides....Also, why don't I do these things in winter when long sleeves cover my work?????