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I can sit up and even walk around some today. Things are improving. I am becoming very, very anxious though. One dr. isn't happy with me; the other will follow tomorrow. Not unrelatedly (is that a word? is now) 365 days ago I was waiting up to eat at 11:55. This is a year since the day that changed everything. I am really not handling it well. It's probably good that I see Dr. Mind tomorrow instead of Monday. I can't believe tomorrow is Thursday. I have lost nearly a week. I'm becoming more afraid of this surgery and that I will lose even more. I keep thinking about my professional self in say 2010. I know that is gone. I can't lose it again. But that hurts too. On the other hand I talked to Anne a little bit on the phone and she is as sweet as ever. Mom said that a repair man came to fix the washer today. She told Anne "Now this is Mike, he's here to fix the washer". Anne said "I will be shy". (this always last 3 seconds which is funny to see). My mom told her Mike was nice, no need to be shy. So instead she watched him with a complete commentary and questions. He finally asked my mom how how she was. My mom (or Anne although she forgets that her birthday makes her 2 instead of 1 1/2) told him and he said "Is she READING yet? Wow!" Funny. And my guess is reading easily by age 3. anyway, I have some soup to eat and maybe tonight I'll sleep. Copyright 2006 www.masterofirony.blogspot.com