Good

Things are going well.  I paid a massive amount of credit card debt (massive in relation to my income) down today and will pay it off next month with a small payment.  That was a good start and even better it was a start in the morning.  Topamax is helping me wake up more easily.  It doesn't get me to sleep earlier but I do get up earlier.  That's nice.

We went to the zoo today: my sister, both nieces, my mom and I.  The weather was perfect for me and for the animals; we were able to see some up close that usually aren't seen at all. Anne had a blast and Gwendolyn enjoyed lots of snuggle time.  She likes to be in very specific positions, mostly high on your shoulder with her legs scrunched up under her and a blanket swaddling her.  However, when the sun got in her eyes she let me know I was to move her down.

Gwendolyn (that's not hte right name but it's close and I forget the real one) is doing wonderfully.  She's probably gained a pound in the past 4 days and is definitely longer.  Her hair is growing in, she is no longer pale, her hands aren't icy cold any more, and she is smiling.  I caught a bit of one and it is hard to explain how much it means when you know that things could have turned out very differently.

Anne is doing wonderfully as a big sister.  She is so gentle and caring.  She did want a few times for the adult holding the baby to be changed so she could have attention from the baby holder, but that makes perfect sense.

I did not drink enough but otherwise did really well with a long day with a lot of stimulation.  I remembered my cooler of frozen washcloths and that makes it so much easier when I am overheating.  I took tons of pictures and got some really good ones.  Pictures are my memory so it's not unusual for me to take 400 on a day like today and then delete all but 75 or so. 

I am starting to get used to not having stress about money, stress about paying bills without enough money, packing the house, selling the house, saying good-bye to the house, major surgery on my niece, worrying before her diagnosis that something was "off", etc.  Right now the only stress is picking out things for the house and making my budget stretch to fit everything I want it to hold.  I'm pretty much down to just needing appliances and some furniture items plus finishing touch type things that cost almost nothing. 

This is a good time and I'm ready for a good time.