Forget it

I can't password this.  It is too close to my heart and my heart has lost enough lately.  No need to send requests for passwords.  If it becomes necessary (and I do have a question out to someone who will know) then I will do it.

Dr. Brain increased my seroquel.  It is making me groggy but not sleepy.  Figures.  Hopefully this works because I realized after I left her that I'd been really hoping for the stronger sleeping pill that was on her list.  The problem with that is that I wanted that pill to stockpile it.  So now we're back to my having to admit to having planned to keep that script from Dr. Mind's awareness to give me a "choice".  That's been admitted to her (and a few days later to him) and I'll be asking her to email Dr. Mind with med changes since I am not yet trustworthy apparently.

My cat and I are at my mom's overnight because of a miscommunication.   I forgot how she loves variety.  She looks like the Anna of 5 years ago, sniffing every corner, climbing on all the furniture, and purring like crazy.  I swear her eyes lit up when she got here.  So she's having an awesome time and that is nice to see.  We'll all be staying here for a couple weeks this summer while my mom is away and it is good to know one cat is up for it.  The other will hate it.  I will continue to sleep constantly.

I'm a bit disappointed tonight.  I have been for many months (I suspect years) picking at my scalp.  This has now become pulling at hair until it comes out.  I wondered why I was surrounded by hair balls of my own making.  I thought I had severe dandruff and have purchased every product you can think of for that without it improving.  Finally last week I realized my head was not scaly, it was scabby and at that time the whole thing was a scab.  I looked that up, continued to think I wasn't pulling hair out, and then got up late for an appointment and put my hair in a ponytail when wet.  That let me see clearly the thinning spots.  So now I'm trying to keep my hands occupied even more than I have been.  I had decided that I would get my ears pierced as earrings would give me a fidget near my hair that wouldn't do damage.  But wow that's gotten expensive.  So now I'm in the midst of the great debate of someone who can't afford much of anything.  I think the cheapest starters are $20.  I'm not sure.  I may try to call the other place near me that does piercing and see if they are any cheaper.  That seems like so much for a not very nice set of earrings. I really hate money.  It's harder than I thought (which is saying extremely hard) to go from a nice income to nothing.  Surprise.

Anyway, even after I asked Dr. Mind to write down my counseling homework I proceeded to not pick up on the directions so I have to do the rest of that and make up yesterday's.  I am so tired of forgetting.


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