Music twice in one year on THIS blog

I mentioned falling in love with a music group called Selah in recent weeks.  I listen a lot and I'm finding that I can learn something from most of their songs, which I listen to repeatedly thinking "THIS IS IT" and then I move to another.  I am learning many spiritual lessons this way.  One line that I love (paraphrased) is that there is nothing that is shattered that God can't/won't redeem.

But this is a very different song.  It is only one Selah member, Todd Smith, and it is his song in this big collaborative thing called The Story Project.  As I understand this it is a a lot of different artists singing songs that portray various Bible stories.  He is portraying Job's story and because he is someone is knows pain and loss far too well (he had a daughter born a few years ago with multiple medical issues that caused improper development.  They were told to expect her to gasp for air for about a minute and die.  Instead she lived 2 hours and was a beatiful little girl.  I think of her story when making the hats that go to babies in the same situation.  Mere weeks after his baby died his sister checked on her 3 month old son and found he had also died, from SIDS.)  When this song is performed you can tell how powerful the emotion is for him; his wife posted on her blog that this was the thing that really made him break down after grieving sporadically for several years.  You can hear he has been broken, in a way I don't this could be put on.  I've found a recording of it live but it leaves the beginning.  This version does have the power of including the words.  Please note the words that help me so much with the shame I feel about wanting to give up the gift of life:

Who else will see my suffering as one more opportunity
To educate; to help me see all my flawed theology
If one more well intentioned friend tries to tie up my loose ends
Hoping to, with rug and broom, sweep awkward moments from the room
But I, I can’t forget, I have begged just like a madman
For my chance to die and never have to face the morning

.  There is an INCREDIBLY powerful ending to this song.that you'll have to listen to hear.  I think when you listen you will understand some of the ways it appeals to me so strongly.  I really want to break out of the words that hurt so much and move on to that ending.

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