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I don't think I've made much of a secret that I'm having a tough time functioning remotely normally.  So I'm thinking it sure would be nice if other things would go smoothly.  Kind of like payment for struggling.  Instead....well, smoothly isn't happening.

Dr. Mind was off work last Thursday.  I saw him on Monday, but I already asked for an appointment for tonight.  Somehow that got confused.  I have an appointment NEXT Monday, which is good because I probably need it, but I also really needed today's appointment and am vastly confused about the mistake.  I probably was even a little grumpy on the phone about it (or whiny) but I clearly remember the conversation requesting this appointment, so I think I'm allowed.

I got the bloodwork done to find out of I am a candidate for those asthma shots.  the trick is that after we get the results then we have to take on my insurance, who will not pay for them at all, and at between $500-$2000/month depending on amount and frequency needed I can't afford them.  So more to worry about.

I got a call to start my day telling me that they missed some damage on my car and it's going to cost another $800, therefore eating half my tax refund.  i just want it back; I do not like this Rav4 that I'm renting.  It's great that I got a free upgrade (like 2-3 levels of upgrade), but it's not as nice as my car.  And the mileage stinks.  I thought the Forester was bad at 26-28; this thing is hovering around 23 mpg.  So no more complaining about that.

And then the best part....I have had SEVERE constipation for many years.  Severe like I used to take 3 meds for it and 2 were at doses off the charts.  In the hospital they were constantly making sure i really took that much.  But last fall a new med came out called Amitiza.  Dr. Body tells me it's not one that many people benefit from but for me it is fabulous and has meant the difference between pain and times I gained 10 lbs. of poop and not having to think about it.  Except that I ran out and could not find the mail order bottle.  I checked with Dr. Body; he did indeed send it the script.  I crawled everywhere looking before deciding to check the online insurance thing.  They claim they called me to tell me it wasn't covered.  I know that's not true as I would have immediatley reacted.  So now Dr. Body will have to file an appeal, and that's a bit scary as Dr. Body is a bit scattered right now, answering one question with "as I said" when he'd never referenced anything at all about this.  He also has given me confusing information a few times,etc.  But that's all to be expected with the changes in his life.  But I worry about him and an appeal; he may be too tired.

i'm not entirely cranky like this seems.  I'm sorry about that.  I just can't seem to have a day that makes me feel like "wow, that went well, life is easy" lately and I really need that.  Getting lots of rest this weekend helped a lot, but I feel like I need about 5 days of nothing but rest.  6 more weeks......