Bad

Friday was not good.  Let's say it involved 7 hours/400 miles of driving, a rude Subaru dealership owner who didn't know what he was talking about and cost me a lot of time, a ruptured ovarian cyst, going to work long enough to say I couldn't work (but driving down because I never really thought i'd have to see the dr.), finding out that there's nothing to really do for my new cyst problem but see if a pattern forms in whcih case I'll have more surgery in August, sooner if needed.

It also included finding out Dr. Body and I totally have miscommunicated and while I've told him a bunch of times I'd try steroids, even asking once to do so, I think he somehow never understood I meant oral steroids although i thought that was clear enough.  And so now I find out he wanted to do them and thought I was refusing when in truth I told him several times that I don't want to but that if i need to I will and that if though I'll never be thrilled with it I trust him and that if he told me oral steroids were the best option I'd do it.  So beats me how we managed to tangle that up.  But I'm very, very upset about it.  I may wind up on oral steroids now and that means giving up my vacation.  Since the last vacation mainly involved laying around being very ill and inpatient psych versus the beach is a little difficult to handle I hope not, but I also have to get the asthma controlled.  Emotionally though that just seems hard to handle.  He is looking into the radical option (it's a shot) but needs a specialist to start it and the specialists haven't been lining up to take me.  So we'll see.  I have to find out about it anyway; I have my hopes up and then I realized that it says you need to carry an epipen if you are on this.  well, if I reacted in a doctor's office and needed an epipen that would be fine.  If I had to use one with the MAOI it may be something I could then get to an ER to treat and it may be something I can't do.  I am hoping that is an exaggerated report, or that either Dr. Brain would let me carry at all times a med to lower my bp if I had to use the epipen or that i'd be ok to get to a hospital after using it.  I don't now, although i do know if the best option for treatment without interactions or psychiatric side effects is this shot.  So we'll see what happens there but I'm hopeful.  I'm hoping this will replace the oral steroid talk since we've put it off to the point that doing it would be depressing beyond belief, esp. with my surgical extravanga in August. (if I have more ovarian cysts I get to add laparascopy to the other 2 procedures.  I'm ecstatic.)

When this post was started last night I was frustrated beyond belief.  I'm a little better now.  tired of my ovary hurting, but apparently that will take a few days to go away and for some reason being in the car makes it worse than anything else does.  I was in the car a good bit, so now it's sore.

I'm falling asleep writing so I'll post and if this doesn't make sense or completely say what i wanted to I'll write more tomorrow.