Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

irony for the master

I am frustrated by my own tears.  I am not sure I own a movie that doesn't make me cry, right down to pure comedy.  If I can see myself in a situation I wish I could be in I cry.  If it is sad  I cry.  If it makes me think of something sad I cry.  It's really amazing what makes me cry right now. I know why.  I understand. I'm just tired of it.

And then today I realized that I spent my career helping people with situational depression. I knew how to counsel through it and how to identify someone in trouble.  I did not learn to talk myself through it. Dr.Mind asks me sometimes what I'd tell my patient.  This would be why.  Managing situational depression became second nature because recovery from injury or illness is rough.  I knew how to help.  I knew how to judge when I could help in one session or when things were significant and a doctor needed to know.  I knew how to handle this right up to suicidal patients.  I never thought about this much because it was so common.

But now that it is me I am clueless.

1 comment:

Jean Grey said...

If you are like me, you are not going to be happy until you have a plan- even if it is just a dream at this point. I don't know what you want to do in the future. Maybe it is to be a peer counselor, a nanny for a special needs child, or a part-time OT. You have learned skills that are still with you- and that can benefit someone.