It is Monday. Two Mondays ago I went to see Dr. Mind and then Dr. Brain. When I got to Dr. Brain's I thought "huh, my throat hurts". The same was true Tuesday and Wednesday. Wednesday evening I felt sick and starting running fevers.
I am still sick. I made it 24 hours without a fever but just now it came back. Last night I barely slept because the drainage was so thick and icky I couldn't get comfortable. I was up until 6 and that's with valium.
I'm not finding this funny any longer. I already left a message cancelling Dr Mind because I am still contagious,even though I've exposed him twice, accidentally (I thought the fevers were over last week and then got one after I saw him).
I can't even think straight. My aunt is taking my mom, cousins, their kids, my sister and her kids and I to the beach in March. It will be good but also probably a little hard since I've not seen much of that side of the family since I was diagnosed. One cousin and I were best friends growing up and through college and then as I got sick she pulled out of my life. We've talked about this and I think she was just incredibly uncomfortable and didn't know what to say or do which I can understand. I hope this lets us be friends again. I miss her. But this trip will be weird because it is for an underlying sad reason yet the point is to be happy again.
I paid off a credit card which made me so happy. One more to go. And after next month things should be a little easier financially. Not easy but a touch better.
I discovered tonight that I have nowhere that I can look out a window and see if it is snowing. That's weird. I know it is still snowing because my ankle says so and because it was supposed to do so all night but I can't see to the streetlight and my porchlight is not visible from inside so unless I want to stick my head outside I have to wait for morning to see the snow. I got so used to living across from a street light in my old town I forgot that you can't always see snow falling at night.
And that's about it. I have something on my mind but not for sharing until I am feeling better.