Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Big deal

This is probably only a big deal to me, but to me it is huge. For one thing I've worked incredibly hard to get here. For another this is my record of things and so I'm recording.

I've been trying hard to lose weight. As of this morning I hit 24 lbs. down in 3 months. I also wore pants today that say they are one size smaller than I started but really are the same size as most 2 sizes smaller than I started (ie, I was wearing 20s. These say 18s but didn't fit until 18s were loose, and I remember they were larger than any other pants I had when I was gaining weight). I'm doing this the relatively painless way; some of it is from decreasing my depakote some, and the rest is from switching away from rapidly acting sugars. Mostly. I am doing very well and eat pretty much whatever I want, although I do try to avoid potatoes, white bread, pop, more than bite sized candy (but I eat several of those per day), juice, etc. And it's working!

This is the first time in years I've felt I had control over my body. Bipolar rips away control of how you feel and this is very threatening since "everyone" can handle their mere emotions. And then treatment takes away all sense of controlling your body. I gained 80 lbs in one year from my initial meds. I was an XS scrub size in May and by the following January was a Medium, and a year later a large, and a few years after that an XL. All those clothes are now given away to a pregnant friend.

Last night I was up way past bedtime hardboiling 5 dozen eggs for patient egg-dying day. I'm now going to try to make up for lost sleep.


Sarah said...


I am SO stinkin' proud of you! I know this has been a battle you've been working hard on and I'm SO excited to see the results with you!

If I knew more, I'd mail you a congratulatory gift of super-funness!


Just Me said...

I'm getting myself a gift of super-funness!

it sounds like a weird gift, but I am getting a crockpot with an auto-timer/warmer feature. I LOVE slow cooking and do it all the time (couple times a week).Right now I can't start something then go to work because it will cook far too long what with my drive.

The crockpot is a major feature in my weight loss (lots of bean recipes. Lots and lots of beans).

I'm so excited!

Emilija said...

This is wonderful! People who don't take psych meds or have a mental illness can't even do this!