I'm battling depression. I know it, and it knows it. I'm upping my antidepressant a bit tonight; the doctor hasn't gotten back to me so I'm just doing it. If I get manic I'll fix that.
I overslept for work today until noon. I had set meetings for noon. People are mad at me. I don't blame them.
I have never in all my life overslept from work. I've stayed home sleeping, but I have always called in, and have always stayed late or come in on the weekend. Today I simply didn't wake up. Now I'm scared to go to sleep.
Since I got in trouble for saying something that I still think wasn't inappropriate but was interpreted as such last week in a meeting (minor issue but still), now I don't want to speak. Too bad since I have to.
I have vocational rehab OT coming Wednesday. I feel like I'm going to hear 9000 ways I'm a bad therapist. I don't feel like I'm good at what I do at all. I can't even wake up on time.
I really need Dr. Mind. And that's 2 days away and I don't feel like an hour is in any way going to be enough for my brain to explode on him.
And I'm just so tired.........