I'm managing my sleep better with teensy doses of valium. It's imperfect but it is sleep and I got 7 hours last night which was amazing. I actually let my boss know I"m too tired to finish evals tonight and may start the day from home tomorrow. Which she was ok with. I'm having a very busy week and am so, so tired, and have still had daily asthma attacks since the test last week, but they are getting better and my chest hurts less, and today i even had my full voice for a little bit. My doctor added a med back on, so I'm now on 2 daily inhalers, a pill, and a rescue inhaler and still not controlled. The test results are still not back, and once those come in I'm going to go in to the doctor to do some learning about the balancing act that is now my life. He told me that we'll just keep trying meds until we figure out what is easiest to handle, because as long as I'm where I am and am just uncomfortable and not feeling great it's better to do that than to do the more drastic oral steroids, which would probably clear some of this faster and give the meds an easier time working but the mania/mixed stuff would be harder to handle. He's right, even though this way is hard and I think part of our talk will be setting a deadline by which time it's breathe or oral steroids. However, I suspect that this will not be appropriate until about July because as long as it's cold it is harder, and then it will be allergy season. This is a crazy tightrope act, one I never considered. I got used to knowing what this could happen with bipolar and I have a pretty good grasp on what the bad things that can happen with my type and history are as well as the positive outcomes we had every reason to believe would continue until the day I went into that home with the whooping cough. The one truly amazing thing is that I have a history of having 4-6 severe sinus infections annually. This is usually because without being able to use decongestants things start growing and my sinuses become cesspools. This seems also to have had something to do with nursing homes even though I've been exposed to colds this year for sure. Anyway, it has been a year now since the last sinus infection. If I get a cold while I'm still having daily attacks I doubt I could manage it without oral steroids.Yet I've made it without any colds through almost the whole winter.
And with that my eyes are closing and the vlium gives me only a short time to fall asleep so goodnight hwiht my eyes already closed.