i did something that weekend i'm more or less allowed to do but probably to to the extremes i took it to, especially not mid-clear-episode. however i am convinced it what i needed and i am sure i feel better for it.
Starting Friday night i avoided the meds that make me wakeful. the one i shouldn't mess with this way mostly is the steroid but i had to get some sound, not only due to meds, sleep. i knew i'd feel better if i did, and in fact i was right. i could use a few more days, but for the most part i am better rested and feeling a bit more able to stand the thought of resuming life than i have been in a while. Granted it's also been a very long time since I was able to rest like that as i've had few weekends without committments or stomach flu in forever. But while it didn't change the depression i do feel like i am not bouncing into 30 minutes of mania then back to depression (aka i'm not quite as mixed) and because mixed episodes burn so much energy just because they put your body
(this is based on my observation, not medical fact) through so much drastic change, quite so much. When i have to face leaving home and facing the world tomorrow, including a checkup with the ankle doctor, we'll see how
I feel, but for the moment i at least feel like i'ave had some quiet time. Desperately needed quiet time i should add.
And now i must take the meds i forgot about a bit ago and get more sleep.
And fix that stupid shift key!