First, I am ok. Nothing terrible has happened. Basically I am having a very, very hard night as I found out the rather grim outlook for controlling my asthma as is(which I had ignored my doctor saying several times) and had to go to the questions I've dreaded, basically asking if I am willing to risk serious psychiatric effects, what happens then? I realized finally tonight that I am once again fighting not just temporarily but fully and longterm for quality of life again, and I am just not able to to consider this without a lot of tears and wanting to give up. I am not handling this well.
Please pray for me.
More when I can talk better.