I am so grouchy right now....
All I can do is hope to fall asleep soon. If I don't I guess I call Dr. Brain tomorrow. And that's the last thing I want.
I was counting on this working. I very much do not want to have to add another anti-psychotic. I will if I have to but I hate adding unfamiliar meds and these old ones we're going to be using are unfamiliar. I will admit my biggest concern is weight gain and while that probably shouldn't be my first concern it is. I have been losing some weight by being careful and I really do not want to regain it, much less gain any more than that. I'm so tired of feeling self-conscious and fat. And my impression of these older drugs is weight gain, weight gain, weight gain. The one I think is the first choice I don't think actually is a huge risk for weight gain but I'm not sure about that. I also do not want to be overly sedated. I need more than I've had lately but when a new drug is thrown in it can be hard to balance needing that drug and the side effects, particularly when they are cumulative with 4 other meds.
So last night I cracked a Seroquel and took 1/2 of it. The increased me from 900 mg of extended release to 900 mg of extended release plus 150 mg of immediate release. I fell asleep quickly and while my sleep was restless I did sleep through most of the night and napped through the day. I still was moody and very teary today but the sleep was good.Since the sleep wasn't perfect I increased tonight so that I had 900 mg of extended release and 300 mg of immediate (this is a HUGE overall dose and a very large dose of extended release even if I weren't doing the immediate release as well). And that was 3 hours ago and I'm not at all sleepy. This is not a good sign.