I just want to be done with this. But that's not how it works; this will end but it will get me again. And again. It seems like you should get used to it but I certainly haven't.
No matter how manic I am and how little sleep I've had in a given time period there come days when my body physically crashes and I get some sleep. After sleeping mostly in 45 minute increments the last few days I finally got a 2 hour nap with only 1 brief awakening. Then when I went to bed I was tired. I was sleepy when I took my meds at 8:30. I even was laying with the lights dimmed for a while. And then the anxiety took over and it's 11:45 and I'm again wide awake and agitated. It feels like I could just roll over and sleep but that doesn't work. I don't get it.I still don't know what is happening next. I think i"m going to wait until Monday to bug Dr. Brain again just because that way I can be positive it isn't anything to do with the girls being here. It's not but I'll make sure. I don't want to add another med without knowing for sure that I tried everything else.