This is a particularly hard time for, as the most recent posts have noted. Sleep was bad before and I was expecting to go to even more Seroquel or start a new anti-psychotic today. But with the things that have happened anxiety is the key issue and so we are just treating anxiety.I have been on fairly large doses of anxiety meds for years. Mostly I took 2 mg of Klonopin at bedtime and then could take 1 (used to be 2) mg as needed during the day. For the past few years I rarely used that extra one. However as soon as the events of 4/4/14 hit I knew that I needed more than that. The first clue was that I hadn't been able to sleep and had taken a day's worth of PRN 30 minutes before the call came at 5:00 AM and there was no way I would make it without help.
This still just is as hard as anything I have faced. Everything feels more stressful; money, almost moving today(and then the Ikea couch cover was an Ikea loveseat cover and I can't move the cats in until the cover is on or they might tear it so I have to wait for that to come), acquiring things I didn't really think about needed until now, etc. We are supposed to go on vacation a few weeks. I don't want to. Mostly I don't want to spend money but I also don't want to go through the first big thing without my brother.
One day I'll make a list of things that would be easier.