Purpose

One reason I've not been  writing is that I feel like everyday, every minute is about getting sleep, not messing up my sleep, or feeling bad from the meds (they make me nauseous as well as exhausted).  But I also am not giving myself credit for doing things, and small things really matter right now.  So these posts may not be exciting but they are what I need to look at and do to see I'm not worthless.

So, today I:

• got up and dressed in clean clothes and remembered to complete all hygiene (yesterday I did not)
• went to the ATM
• faxed disability papers to several doctors
• went to the dentist and got my bite plate revised so i can use with it asthma and has full face xrays taken
• contacted work trying to find out where to find my dental insurance information
• made a baby hat for an organization I'm donating them to and started another
• opened and sorted packages that came in the mail.
• deposited my disability check
• bought a tire gauge at the local hardware
• got ice cream (these last few include walking up a little block and back)
• did some laundry
• talked to my mom for a few minutes on the phone
• took a 30 minute nap
• made a big yarn ball (the only part of knitting I hate)
• developed a plan for getting help from Dr. Brain
• washed some dishes
• microwaved supper and ate a sandwich at lunch
• cried when I needed to
• made this list.

So I am not doing nothing.  These posts may continue to pop up as I work on believing myself.  Somehow I've convinced myself that not being well yet means I'm bad or not trying or something.  My assistant called the other day allegedly with a question that really turned into "when you are coming back, I'm losing  $ here" and that was really unfair and let me feeling terrible.  Because right now I'd guess 3-4 weeks based on the past.

Any time to deal with laundry again.