Sort of. This mania thing isn't pretty to be around but it sure is making me effecient. I've kicked butt at work this week. That is great but it will hit me back in a bunch of unfortunate ways. I'm tired, for one thing. That just gets more complicated by my sleep patterns being thrown off more than usual. Second, it actually costs me money. I am paid hourly and when I work so fast I don't need my allowed paperwork etc. time then I don't get a full day's work. Finally, and worst, it confuses my employer into thinking I can be effecient if I try. I don't know why it is so hard to understand that it isn't about trying, right now I'm trying to be less effecient, but about how my mind is working. When I'm thinking about 5 things at once of course I can do faster patient care and do more things at once than I can if I am going verrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyy slllllllllllooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwlllllyyyyyyyy like when I am depressed. When I'm manic I have more energy and am much less careful about how it is burned, so I have no problem blowing all I have by Thursday. Other times I try to modulate it more.
I also imagine the care I'm giving isn't top notch, but I no longer think the care I give is that good much of the time. If it were it would matter to someone. And if I do provide good care and nobody cares because the amount of money I make compared to the amount they pay me isn't the ratio they most want then something is so wrong. Obviously a profit is important, but this is about the patients, and if that isn't the biggest consideration then I want to do something else.
Also, did I mention I get really cranky when the mania is like this?