Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Messed up med girl

I did get my meds today. The damage doesn't seem as bad as it could be, but I'm definetely going to have to hope I can settle things over the next few days. And these aren't the best days to need to calm down; my schedule is very busy and well, fireworks and I don't tolerate fireworks well. I am doing so much better than a year ago and have been very aware of that, but tonight I'm jumping a lot and my plans to go straight to bed were ruined.

I didn't sleep very well last night then made my life much harder by not waking to take provigil. I wound up with more work than I anticipated, so I went in late and didn't get out early. My assistant messed something up so that I treated someone she'd seen earlier, which has happened before, (actually last week), which didn't help that. So I flew through a lot of treatments that weren't good quality and started feeling that manic rushing feeling.

I am going to skip my antidepressant tonight for one dose to see if that will help by not elevating things more. Then tomorrow I'll shove my way through and hopefully tomorrow's dose will get me close to back where I'm supposed to be.

I do plan to ask the doctor for a stockpile. I think I had one a while back and it's been used up over time.

For now though, the fireworks seem to be slowing (boom) and so I'm going to try to make the first pills do the entire job.

No more mania.


Diana said...

Hello. I've been reading for blog for a little while, and I really admire your openness and honesty about your condition. I hope at some point I'll not feel so ashamed about my depression and just be out there about it.

Anyhoo, I basically screwed myself in a similar way with letting my anti-depressant run out right before the holiday. I'm just hoping I can get that resolved today and get back on track. I hope you're able to do the same.

Sarah said...

You, I just wanted to let you know that I've been reading your blog for a year now. I REMEMBER last year's 4th of July post and so that's what made me realize this.

I am doing better and hope that you get back on track, too.