Today has been a swirl of activity. Up at 6:30, went with my mom to my sister's, toddler to playground and out to lunch, then toddler nap and the first time I've seen her get upset when someone left. She wanted her mommy who was working and didn't want the fun to end either.
Then we went to Sam's club. I will go to another one this week because I was so exhausted I didn't want to do my shopping/making sure I stay in my food stamps limits thing. It's hard for me to do and it's tiring. Plus I knew I was too tired to carry things in when I got home. We went because my mom needed a few things and she isn't near one routinely.
So I am so exhausted from this long day and not sleeping well last night as per usual. Plus yesterday was an emotional day. I'm sure I'll have more to say about that.
And then I was stupid, stupid, stupid. Being with my niece reminded me of how much I loved having a baby (21 years younger ) brother (half). I haven't seen him in about 8 or 9 years because his mother who had promised to keep me in his life after she and my father divorced re-married and changed her mind. I'm waiting for him to be 18 so I can stalk him legally. (My mother, in one of her better moments, told me that this was a bad idea because he's probably creepy since his mother is. My mother hates his mother because she was involved with my father while they were married. Good reason except that she was in HIGH SCHOOL and I don't think you can really blame a kid for that. Might as well blame all kids who were molested. Huh, we've done that too.....It's really that she doesn't get it. But anyway I looked for her. I had seen her on facebook once. This time I discovered that the city paper where I was working at the time wrote an article about her being Jewish and deployed to Iraq. Which means she's adopted her husband's faith in a bit way. Which is good, I'm glad she has faith of some kind. But here is this big old article about what a hero she is and I just want to know my brother. It's another case of one too many losses.
Anyway, I'm trying to get some programs uninstalled to see if they are why my computer is being bad and it says this window must close.
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