Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Monday, December 27, 2010


Here's why I could never be a mental health therapist.  I would die of curiosity.  Today Dr. Mind was trying to get me to quit sobbing (apparently when I say something is upsetting me I am deadly serious); I said "this tends to make me cry and then sobbed for a very long time".  But some of his positive words led me to start talking about this blog, of all things.  I was talking about how incredibly good it has been for me since I started talking much more openly about my life and the abuse and the effects of bipolar.  I was talking about how much support I get here, from Michal's little devotionals to comments that mean the world to me.  And somewhere in there I realized UH-OH, I just told Dr. Mind one of my biggest secrets.

He could find it.  I'd not know; I never look where people are from, and he could easily have a service like mine that says I'm from Columbus Ohio, which is hours away from here; it's not even the closest city.  If you know enough about me you can find this easily and he certainly knows.  But ethically he can't. I don't think, anyway. And that would be TORMENT to me.

Too tired for more tonight.  This may be one more lighter posting week.  I'm exhausted, my work computer broke and I may have to write things out for the next few days, I had a bad day with asthma today, and I have a weird work schedule.  However, I have a 3 day weekend and the only thing on the book is a visit with Dr. Mind.

For now, it's time to try to sleep.


WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

I told one set of specialists that I keep a blog and they said that they felt it was a healthy outlet for angst. I'll bet Dr. Mind thinks so too!

Michal Ann said...

Sorry for being dense but I don't understand what would be "torment" to you. Is it wondering if Dr. Mind will find the blog? I agree with "Winny" that your blog will be considered a healthy outlet. I think the good doctor will find yet another reason to be proud of you. He is a fellow believer, full of wisdom and compassion.

I hope you find encouragement in these verses.

"Now may the God of peace make you holy in every way, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again.

God will make this happen, for He who calls you is faithful.

Dear brothers and sisters, pray for us.

Greet all the brothers and sisters with Christian love."

I Thess. 5: 23-27

Anonymous said...

Hi Jen,

I think that if Dr. Mind DID find you, he'd be nothing but proud, happy, and satisfied with your writings.

Think of it - if "we" who read you and don't even "know" you have such high regard for you and all you are, and all you do, and all you are working to be, Dr. Mind would feel it too and on a much more personal level.

Honestly, it would make my day if I said even ONE thing that would cause you to smile, or to help even a little bit. Think of all the "smiles" Dr. Mind would find in reading here. (I think you should give him the url as a late Christmas present! ha!)

I think I "get" the point of your post. Tormented with the temptation? But also, I think you'd never use any information against someone... only as a way to seek understanding and background, and empathy.

And THAT is why I am here. You, my dear, are one fine person! And whether Dr. Mind finds you here or if he doesn't, he already knows who you are and the good things you are made of!

Sheesh! Enough of me for today. Can you tell us how that little niece of yours is doing? :-)


Jean Grey said...

I keep reading about how the "younger generation," of which I am evidently not a part of, doesn't have this expectation for privacy, or even value it, the way other generations do. They want their lives online, and everyone to see it. However, with most blogs you can read them autonomously- maybe that is why Facebook took off so much. Real names.