About an hour ago I posted happy birthday to my niece on facebook. This began the worst panic attack I have had in many years. I am still having some symptoms and it has been an hour and I've been medicated. I don't know what triggered it; I'm thrilled she's a whole year old. She is, after all, my favorite niece. I think that the moment of memory of what this was like last year, and all the stress in my life at the moment collided. I am having to go in to work late and miss a meeting because of trying to get calmed down. However, I can't really go in while shaking and shivering (after effect of too much adrenaline) and my face swollen and on the verge of tears. I just can't believe how bad that one was.
Of course as the adrenaline leaves that just makes me tired. Tough luck there......
Dr. Brain has been contacted. At least now I've re-read what she wrote yesterday and although I thought she was mad at me I don't think so anymore. She's probably sick of me, because I've emailed her about 5 times lately and Dr. Mind did as well, but can't help this one. I'm also calling her office to be sure she gets the email because she can't go on vacation without med change options if that's going to happen.
I also am definitely not going to my niece's party Saturday. It's more than I can handle right now. Oh, and did I mention that my front door deadbolt worked nicely yesterday morning and now the door won't open? So I have to change a lock or pay a locksmith. Yippee. I've tried this before. It's not easy. hopefully it will be easier tonight.
Pray for me today if you pray please. Not gonna be easy.