As I've said very often when something hard happens there is a rainbow. Today there was a gorgeous, all the way across the sky, brightly colored rainbow for 5 miles or so of my drive.
That rainbow came immediately after I was notified that because of a hidden pre-existing clause on long-term disability I am unlikely to get those benefits. I cannot work at this time. For what I read it is quite unlikely. Right now it looks like I will need to file for SSDI, may well face bankruptcy, and today I got my last check. I do have a very large tax return coming and that will get me through a few months. For the most part I am facing some really big problems.
Dr. Mind called Dr. Brain while I was there; if they've connected it has been since I left. I have cried until my eyes feel like popping out. Somehow I need to go make some supper. I didn't eat lunch because the horror of that letter made me forget that I needed to stop.
That rainbow needs to come through for me. I truly thought this was all addressed. I feel sick with horror.