Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Anxiety

I woke anxious, I'm going to work anxious, and I'd really prefer to hibernate.  I do not feel like sitting through meetings, and then I have to go around and feel stupid dealing with the stuff from last night's patient.  I do not want to go through that.  I feel like an absolute idiot with the conversations this makes me have, and I do not understand why this patient has no problems with anyone in the agency but me.  I do know, it's because it's "my" body part that is affected but the patient has made good, even great progress, and now the patient is hurting their own progress by refusing to take instructions from me.  I just don't know.  What I do know is I NEED vacation.  3 more weeks, I think.  I haven't even asked what is happening to my patients that week.  I am that desperate for time off.

And now I have to go so I can get my water bill paid before they turn it off.  Again, stressed anyone?

2 comments:

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

I think its the time of year or the moon signs. Restless night last night.

Michal Ann said...

I hope you've reached a better place by the time you read comments. You "know" that it's not personal with your patient. You're receiving the brunt of his frustration. Think about who you really are: a skilled professional with years of experience the patient surely doesn't have. His world is probably pretty small right now while you're buzzing around with lots of activities like meetings, water bills, vacation planning.

If nothing else (exhale fully) , say "whew! I'm one wonderful therapist" and BREATHE for a minute or two. "Mini vacation" time.

You're amazing and strong and capable and caring and wonderful!