Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Sunday, March 21, 2010

PTSD 1, Just Me -1

Dr. Mind has expressed surprise that I've not been complaining of nightmares during this. Well, that's over. I don't know what happened yesterday, nothing new upset me, I didn't think about scary things much, but it hit. Hard.

First was not being able to fall asleep, despite taking meds early. That's a bad thing. Finally I did fall asleep and woke up screaming and terrified at 1:45. I got up and did something, as I'm supposed to do in that situation but couldn't calm down. Finally I took valium and slept an hour before more of the same nightmare woke me screaming. I got back to sleep within an hour that time, woke once but went back to sleep because I still had a lot of valium in my system. Then I woke 2 hours later sobbing, and had obviously been crying for some time. Same nightmare.

So I guess I'm on the extra Seroquel Dr. Brain prescribed earlier in the week. I've been hesitant to take it because of sedation, but I'm not doing that kind of night again.

I truly thought I was going to make it through this without this happening. Guess not.


Michal Ann said...

Oh, how I pray that these troubling dreams will do their work to purge your memories and leave you restored to health and peace. Dr. Mind expected nightmares as part of the process. You're still doing everything you can to medicate yourself properly and get all the rest you can.

Bravo Jen!

You're in a battle so I hope you put on the "whole armor of God" before you go to sleep...well, wear it night and day! The enemy of our souls is destructive by definition and is a liar, deceiver and accuser. He's not happy with your progress and your healing. Do your best to "stay awake" and alert to his schemes.

Keep scripture such as the 23rd Psalm in mind. "Yeah though I pass through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for Thou art with me."

I'm only recommending things that I try to employ so I can "meditate on things that are true, right, just, lovely, worthy of a good report." (see Philippians 4: 5-9) I'm so easily tempted to do the opposite. I'm actively suffering a very troubling time so please believe me that I'm offering a life-line and not a lecture!

The Whole Armor of God

Ephesians 6: 10-18

10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness.

15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.

Yes, let's commit to praying for each other with persistence. Here I go! "Lord, be with my friend now and especially as she tries to rest. Give her Your peace as Your word describes in Proverbs 3: 24

"You can go to bed without fear; you will lie down and sleep soundly."

Please, Lord, bring us Your peace, "crazy" peace, peace that passes understanding and touches us at our deepest places of need in our bodies, hearts, minds, spirits and souls."

Just Me said...

Thank you for strength i am lacking right now.