I slept a few minutes after several hours of my body physically showing how upset it was-shaking and panic attacks and agitation and freezing. And then a nightmare woke me about 4 hours ago and that's it. I've changed my sheets, made hats (of course), cleaned up my room, managed a few financial things and I am still way too agitated. And I have a tension headache but that's to be expected. I've discovered that I was so stressed today that my muscles are sore. I've had that throughout the treatment but I hurt down to my wrists this time because of how my arms were held.
Now I forget the things that Dr. Mind said that felt like examples of what I'm supposed to be able to say. It just gets wiped away with everything else. Because that was very hard already I think I"m going to ask if we can first tape that and then next time move to the tape involving icky words and descriptions.
I'm going to go get some milk and crackers and see if I can't get to sleep already.
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