Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Friday, May 25, 2012

This weekend

Please note:  If you are here to attack me this is a nice, vulnerable post.  I have visions of all the names that go with using financial assistance programs being thrown at me.  So, before you even read this, yes I am a freeloader and make things more expensive for people who are better than I because they can work.  And then I'm going to ask you to email me at masterofirony@att.net with those comments so I can handle the sexual abuse things I must deal with right now.  If you want to know more about that, tough and negative comments can go to the same addresss.  Positive comments welcomed as usual. Thank you.

This morning I woke up with the kind of nausea that says "roll over and you will pay".  Amazingly I rested and stuck to bland food and I seem to be ok. I don't know if I ate something, won in a viral battle or if it was stress getting really ugly.

So here's the agenda for the weekend (and why I may not be here a ton):  I need to get to my mom's to help with something but it depends on temperatures dropping in evenings.  I'm writing PTSD story 3, and it's not  easy.  Pretty much I chose to cram vast amounts of discussion about sexual abuse into one story.  I've had more fun.  I did write some of this for another project so a lot is expanding on things and adding more details.  I may not even do this Monday; I have a gynecologist appointment on Wednesday and increasing the PTSD may not be ideal.  We'll see.  I've let Dr. Mind decide since I have 2 opinions.

I am hoping that Dr. Body got my script called in.  He is going on vacation tomorrow and had asked me where I wanted it to get since I have to call around for pricing on things that aren't long-term or on $4 lists.  I emailed as soon as I could yesterday but when I called this afternoon he hadn't called the script in.  So either he's done it quite late or I'm waiting until Tuesday or later to get .pain relief for the headaches.

I'm experimenting with something with my baby hats.  Therefore I have 2 Cabbage Patch dolls wearing the hits I knit.  We'll see if this affects their shaping.

One of my greatest worries seem to have been alleviated.  I had 20 more years of student loan payments that were quite high.  Thankfully I was down to only my federal loans since private ones have no clause to help in my situation.  Federal loans have a discharge process if you are totally and permanently disabled (my favorite phrase).  Apparently this is only rarely given and then it is usually people who are terminally ill.  Today I  checked the webpage and I have been moved to the monitoring period.  That means that I've been approved for discharge but am in the 3 years that they make sure I make almost nothing beyond my SSDI income.  It appears I may owe them one payment but hopefully I'll be able to divide that up or something.

I also had a nice experience with the financial assistance people at Cleveland Clinic.  Again.  They have been wonderful.  This time they called to make sure I'd been told of the program when no insurance showed up on their building.  I had actually re-applied (has to be done every 3 months) and

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1 comment:

Michal Ann said...

Oops! Your post ended abruptly...the story continues.

I think you have the Lord's marching orders to take a sabbatical for at least 3 years, per the guidelines for discharge of student loans. You did all you could do to benefit mankind with your education and that's the way it is! Rest in that truth.

The kindness of the clinic is another indication that you're on track with this respite.

Forget the nasty folk. Be glad that nastiness is NOT one of your shortcomings! This image came to mind: they will go forth in darkness, wrapped in filthy rags with snarling faces and backward, paranoid glances.

You, meanwhile, are walking in radiance with a rainbow overarching your path.

Psalm 34:4-6
New Living Translation

I prayed to the Lord, and He answered me.

He freed me from all my fears.

Those who look to Him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.

In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; He saved me from all my troubles.

So there!

Keep walking (sleeping, plodding, writing, knitting..) in the Light.

Love, Michal

p.s. The word "His" is the first part of the code I must enter to submit this comment. We are HIS!
Take THAT, enemies! You, too, could be HIS if you would like to give up the darkness and seek the Light. Jesus has a lifeline for you! He sets before you life and death. CHOOSE LIFE that you may live eternally. Don't put judgment upon yourself. YOU alone will choose death or life. Jesus offers abundant life.

John 3:16-17
New Living Translation

“For God loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. God sent His Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through Him.

CHOOSE to be saved from the darkness, negativity and judgment you level on yourself and others. Let it go! Lift the death sentence. Be blessed!