Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13
Monday, April 12, 2010
The extra Klonopin is helping immensely. I only was really anxious for a little bit today and it was a very stressful day. I'm also getting much better sleep, although I didn't want to get out of bed today. However that had more to do with being cold and dreading parts of today than anything else. Again, I can't go into all of this for another month, but let's just say the part of my job where I only work in 13 week contracts is going to pay off. It's time to move on. I'll explain the rest in another month when it is over. I am just so happy though because decision essentially made itself. I knew I needed to move on probably, but was holding out hope that one thing would work out. It did not.
In the meantime I am expecting to have a rather rough month. Rough enough I'm just going to sign up for extra time with Dr. Mind for the next 4 weeks.
I am getting sleepy and boring. More later. Sorry for being obtuse.
Over the years I have noticed that when I have the least hope a rainbow appears. Rainbows are a wonderful combination of beauty, hope, happiness and rain, the product of ugly grey clouds that hide the beauty of the sky. The beauty that is a rainbow can only come with the presence of both rain and sun. Such is life with bipolar disorder. There are good times, there are tough times, and there are rainbows to remind us that beauty will return, sometimes fleetingly and sometimes for a long time. This blog is my story of sadness and hope. Please scroll down to "Who I Am" under Pages to read more about me and the people who populate this blog.
Please note that any patient experiences noted in this blog are heavily edited to disguise events. Similarities to real persons are coincidental.
Please also know that while I speak as a professional at times, I am not a doctor. I have strong opinions, some based on professional training and/or experience, some based on research, and some based on personal experience of my own variety of this illness. Therefore what I say is my opinion, not a fact and doctors should always be consulted.