Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Sunday, October 30, 2011

you've got to be kidding

I slept so long and well last night that I truly thought lunesta was going to solve things.  I was even thinking about things like talking to work about extending disability through this week to let me sleep then reassess.  Um, why do I remain eternally optomistic about sleep meds?  I am having no sign of tonight's dose working.  One night.

I don't know what God is telling me aside from never believe that any aspect of this stupid disease is resolved.

Ugh.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Jen, I'm so sorry that you're having these great challenges with your chemistry. It's not "fair!" My heart goes out to you, friend. I'm far too familiar with anxiety and the stress of school isn't helping. I woke up today with shingles, which I had as an expectant mother. It sure looks like the same little row of blisters along the ribs on one side of the body. Please pray for quick healing and that I'll take things in stride much more than I do.

I wonder if part of today's God Calling devotional will speak to you, too.

"Wait and you shall realize the Joy of the one who can be calm and wait, knowing that all is well. The last, and hardest lesson, is that of waiting. So wait.

I would almost say tonight "Forgive Me, children, that I allow this extra burden to rest upon you even for so short a time." ...

Use this waiting time to cement the Friendship with Me, and to increase your Knowledge of Me."

Our soul waiteth for the Lord: He is our help and our shield. Psalm 33:20

(((HUGS))) Michal