Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Monday, November 21, 2011


Today I am doing what I can, which turns out to be sleeping and worrying about Dr. Brain getting in touch with me.  I know she will and that it probably will be tonight, but I just feel like my meds are so screwed up that I must do something now.  Which really I am, sleeping, but the whole experience has me terrified.  It was so out of the blue and so scary, and the hospital time damaged the small faith I'd started to regain in doctors who I haven't thoroughly assessed for competency.  A sarcastic, dismissive psychiatrist is a bad thing.  A general doctor who admits to incompetency with psych meds so won't give normal doses is just wrong.  Oh, the stories I have to tell you all, but only when I can make sense.  Which is not yet.  The confusion I had before is mostly gone but worsens when I'm tired.  I'm tired.  I also had to call and explain my credit card payment wasn't made because I was in the hospital to get the fees and interest increase removed.  Thank God.  And I'm trying to get human resources the information they need by Monday or I lose my job regarding returning.  So it's an altering stressed and sleepy. And right now I'm falling asleep yet again, writing or not so I guess it's nap time.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Lord, we have so much to request of you. Jen's needs are great. Reach out with Your hands of love and put things in order in every part of her body, mind, spirit and life. I praise You for her amazing strength and resiliency. Cover her with Your wings so that she may rest when it's time for rest and give her great strength when it's time to focus on the paperwork. Protect her job. Please give her favor with human resources. Thank you again that she's home. Make it a place of safety and refuge; relieve her fear and anxiety with Your heart of peace and love. Keep the darkness at bay and give her light and hope by the power of Your mighty Holy Spirit.

"May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope."

Romans 15:13