Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Feeling whiny

I am going to be learning patience in the next 2 months.  I am getting bored laying in bed.  However any activity triggers coughing.  By any activity I mean that I went to the kitchen and started mircowave mac and fake cheese, carried my very small very light TV 20 feet to my bedroom, got a cup of orange juice and brought my food back to the bedroom and that was enough to make me need cough meds.  Which make me very, very tired and slow to think and do cut the cough but I have to stay still for that to really make much difference.  I tried TV; it just annoyed me.  And frankly money is scaring me.  LIttle things add up.  I realized I'm too sick to get my car adequately cleaned up to sell Saturday.  That means paying for detailing, which is undoubtedly a good thing, but also not cheap.  I have to buy vacation stuff including food; my plan to take pre-made leftovers is pretty limited by my fatigue and inability to cook the last several weeks.  I am all worried because I need a scarf because I can't breathe in cold air.  I don't know why I'm so worried, it's hardly a bit deal, but I am because my mind is just not able to problem solve right now.  All I want is to sleep, and right now I'm sleepy but not able to fall asleep because I'm worrying.  I am even worrying about things like work saying that they don't want me anymore because I'm a pain.  I don't intend to be....I know they won't do that, but after 15 months of everything being about being sure the customer is happy I don't know what else to do.

Again, this worked out right.  Even if I have to use my credit card more than I wanted in the next week I have already gotten the financing on my car so it doesn't matter if my credit score is affected.  That's the most important thing to remember about money.  That and it IS only money and I'll get through this.

Now I need to get my fingers busy.....


Michal Ann said...

I'm so sorry that you're truly sick. In this post, you worked your way through the worries to a reasonable persective on what's happening. Try to take every thought captive.

Maybe you can find some inspiration in 2 Corinthians 10: 4-5 The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Praying for your speedy healing and great mercy to surround you.

WinnyNinny PooPoo said...

Timing stinks doesn't it? Take time tho to rest and recover!