So I know that I'm depressed and tired of not feeling well and that has a lot to do with my hours of crying last night. But I did some quick experiments and there is a much bigger reason: not only do I feel like I can't breathe when I'm laying down, I really can't. I did some monitoring of my oxygen saturations and at one point they were down to 83% (should be 95, 90 is acceptable minimum, 83 is not good). I also discovered that moving lot of ways makes it much, much worse trying to breath, but that leaves me laying the direction where my sats drop the most. So I have lots of stuff for my doctor to consider. I also had absolutely no idea of how stressed I was about money, and I paid bills and I'm fine, should make it through this week without hitting the savings fine. Ideally I can make it through next week too, but we'll see.
Basically I think I left all the stress behind and then came back and it all smacked me in the face.
I will try to put up my vacation stories later today. I need to get ready for the doctor.