I quit

I woke up this morning FREEZING.  Then I realized I did not feel well.  My whooping cough symtpoms come and go; today is a come day.  Seems like about every other day is bad.  But I also have what seems like a sinus infection.  So, tomorrow morning will be up early to call Dr. Body's office and either get more meds or go see him.  Again.  Because once a week is an appropriate frequency to see the doctor....At least I've been making the most of my COBRA coverage.  I had to purchase it for only 2 weeks coverage, but it's covered 1 visit to Dr. Brain, 2 (now maybe 3) to Dr. Body, a month of Seroquel (thousands of dollars), a month of patches (hundreds to a thousand dollars), a month of several other meds, a nebulizer, the meds for the nebulizer which I suspect are also expensive, 2 rounds of antibiotics (soon to be 3 and the 3rd will be a strong one) and 1 visit to Dr. Mind (sort of since it barely covers those).  So for once $362 seems reasonable for Cobra, especially since my deductible was fully met.

On the other hand I do not feel well, and that's making me more emotional.  I'm also more sensitive, making me have hurt feelings because my mother didn't notice I was crying when we just hung up.  I sound so crazy all the time now with the changes in my voice from the illness(es) and coughing that I'm sure she thought I was just starting to choke again, but still.  I hate this alone thing, even though if I ONLY had the sinus infection I probably would be grounded then too.  Of course I wouldn't have the sinus infection if I didn't have the other.........

I am so frustrated and tired.  I left my sewing machine at my mom's because I fully intended to be down there today using her washer/dryer and watching her puppies.  Now she has to curtail her time at my sister's to be back for the dogs and she's disappointed because she made me some dessert that I won't be eating today. My mother is not at her most supportive lately.  In fact she's driving me crazy but that's another post for another day.  For now I got my tears out and I should try to find something to eat for lunch.