This is just the first time I'm posting this. I'll post again closer to time, probably a few times if I have control. I'm starting early because I'm beginning to question my ability to do this for 20 more days. I badly want/need to make it about 10 days more due to work staffing, but at that point I may need to go to the hospital. I'm feeling pretty rotten and I do not know if I can manage that long. I'm trying to break it into chunks: make it through tomorrow, see Dr. Mind. Make it to Thursday, see Dr. Mind. Make it to Saturday, sleep as much as I need to for 2 days. Repeat Monday and Thursday with Dr. Mind. See Dr. Brain that Saturday. That visit is key. And if I can make it to that visit I'll make it the final few days, I think. But I'm not sure I can, not without becoming unable to function.
So, here's where I ask for help from you. During the time I'm in the hospital I'll have access to email. I hope to post from my blog via email, at least a few sentences from time to time. I will be sending my comments and of course usual blog related email to my blog email, email@example.com . Julia has agreed to check that account for me, make sure things are appropriate for the hospitalized for severe depression recipient, and will forward them to me on my "real" address. I would love to hear from you. Anonymous comments are fine. Just anything to help me remember I'm not as alone as I'm likely to feel. Even a simple "hi" will be much appreciated.
Thank you, and thank you simply for reading all of this. I'm seeing more and more errors as I re-read, and I'm sorry. I just don't care enough to fix them.