Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Big change of plans. I hope

I'm asking to go home today.  I'm hypomanic enough being here has become torture.  I can't take the noise and all th lights and general stimulation.  I'm way better off going home.  I hope the dr agrees.  I'll know soon.  More either when I know, or from home.  I suspect it will be late afternoon before I can go if I do, so probably more before I go.  If they let me.  I may have trapped myself yesterday.
There's not enough anxiety medication in the world.
Just Me


Sarahndipitea said...

I hope that things get worked out. I'm worried about you and can't get you out of my head! (Is it warm up there at least?) <3s

Michal Ann said...

Feel free to delete or skip my messages if they don't help you. I take no offense whatsoever! My heart is for you. Feel absolutely free to pick what you want from the smorgasbord, choose your favorites and walk away from the rest! :)

Hang on, wonderful JustMe. No matter the exact timeline today, it sounds like it's only going to be a matter of hours until you're released. I have a wakeful spell in the night when the Lord and I talk about your needs. I trust you felt supported. I understand your desire to go to a calmer environment. By definition, hospitals are over-stimulating. I'd much rather recuperate at home when I can safely be released from the watchful (noisy, irritating) care of the staff.

I'll be praying that you're able to communicate with the professionals who have their "finger on the pulse" of your life right now. Oh how I wish I could wrap you up in the weighted blanket and shut out all irritation. Keep breathing! Meditate on the true, good, just, pure, lovely...Oh God, grant us SERENITY.

Love, Michal

Here are some familiar verses for your First Aid Kit. Apply as needed or keep 'em in the box for another time. Notice that God's peace "surpasses understanding." I sometimes interpret that means I forfeit the peace that "surpasses understanding" if I try too hard to understand. Yup. There's sometimes virtue in "checking my brains at the door." :)
Philippians 4:6-8 (New King James Version)
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Meditate on These Things

8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

Julia said...

I was SOOOO happy to get your text that you were on your way home. Getting some cat love I am sure.

Relax and we're here to hear it all when you are ready.

It's getting better!

Michal Ann said...

Ditto Julia's comments. You did it!! You're on your way home! I hope the energy that you mentioned will all be channeled to GOOD, to creativity and strength for today, bright hope for tomorrow.

I'll be praying for the trip home and the pharmacy errands.

I'm staying tuned but take it as slowly as you want! No expectations or pressure from your cheering section!

With love and CONGRATULATIONS on your journey THROUGH this time!

Love, Michal

"May God our Father shower you with blessings and fill you with His great peace." Col. 1:2b