Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." Genesis 9:13

Friday, November 27, 2009

Locked Up, Addendum

I forgot the part that shows ones of the biggest reasons for frustration in the last part of the Locked Up series.

When I left the hospital I had the usual packet of prescriptions, discharge papers, lists of who I was to follow up with, etc. Dr. Brain's name was there but not an appointment. I was told the social worker would call me the next day with who I was to see when. Well, that day came and the end neared and I finally called her. First she scolded me for being impatient (it was 4:30 and I think I have a right to know how my own life is scheduled), and then she told me that Dr. Brain wanted me to wait until a certain date and then call and talk to a specific person who would get me in.

That's fine, although I'll be very glad when that day gets here next week.

But I still can't believe my last interaction with the place was not being contacted about something so important as a follow-up. Nor was I given someone to contact in an emergency, which was also dumb.

Anyway, enough of the bitterness.

1 comment:

Michal Ann said...

Yeah, there was a lot of anxiety and frustration increased by the dumb decisions of caregivers, especially one nurse and the social worker. You concluded this post with "enough of the bitterness."

That made me think of the scripture about a "root of bitterness." You prompted me to do a bit of a Bible study, so thank you. I usually think of "a root of bitterness" as a personal issue over a grievance. Once I traveled with my daughter and we got stranded at the Canadian border with car trouble. The entire experience was of the Lord to bring to the forefront issues I had with a specific family member.
We were stuck overnight but as soon as I dealt with my heart, the car began to work again as mysteriously as it had quit.

My daughter (only 10) also wanted to join in the grudge but I knew enough to tell her we had to work on forgiveness because of the toxic nature of unresolved bitterness. At that moment, right beside us was a semi truck with mudflaps that said...I KID YOU NOT: "Bitterroot International Systems!!"

Soo...more from my sake than yours, I just I looked up Hebrews 12 on biblegateway.com which I can search by a few words of scripture I might remember or a specific passage for which I know "the address." I also looked up the famous Matthew Henry commentary which he wrote in the 1700's. I searched for him on Wikipedia.
His commentaries: "Not a work of textual criticism, its attempt at good sense, discrimination, its high moral tone and simple piety with practical application, combined with the well-sustained flow of its English style, made it one of the most popular works of its type. Matthew Henry's six-volume Complete Commentary, originally published in 1706, provides an exhaustive verse by verse study of the Bible. His commentaries are still in use to this day."

Hebrews 12:14-15 (New International Version)

Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no BITTER ROOT grows up to cause trouble and defile many."

I found a lot of great insights which have to do with "Warning Against Refusing God" but I'm still thinking about the issue of my sometimes hard heart and my TEMPTATION to lapse into being an "Indian giver" with forgiveness. It's something I'm beginning to discuss with my "new" niece over her mom/my sister's suicide...and other stuff in my relationships I with God and man.

What would the world be without PEOPLE?? They can be so bothersome, eh? Well, I'd better "gird up my loins" for another extended family event today. Whew! Trying to be a peacemaker with the ministry of reconciliation...but I wanna cry, too, not to mention bitch and moan!

Once again, I hope I'm not troubling you with my musings...that's what the "delete" button is for.... :)

Love and better run!