I think I might have gotten the anxiety into the "reasonable but bad" arena today. As I wrote this morning I took too much valium last night, at least in combination with the other meds.
So I decided to space out what works differently.
I took Klonopin when needed it, about 9 AM. Then I took a vistaril when I got a little edgy, about noon. Then I took my 2nd Klonopin of the day about 3:30, and then valium (1/4 tablet unless I'm not sleepy in 20 minutes) when I took my night meds, which is right before the essential oil bath etc. starts.
I'm exhausted, but I'm not wanting to climb walls tonight. And I got a few things done after work. Which is also good. I'm really excited actually about one thing. I am literally doing anything to relax right now. I remembered last night that I had an old one of those massaging seat covers that I got on clearance after Christmas maybe 10 years ago. I dug it out and found the plug, but not the car adaptor. So I was disappointed, but used a coupon to buy a cheap (much less nice) model today, figuring that if they weren't compatible that I could just use one in the house and the new one in the car. They were compatible, so I can now work on relaxing while driving as well as all the rest of the time.
I'm going to have to shut up now and sleep. I have so much to say, but I'm so tired I didn't even do most of my nightly painting. Which is pretty tired since that's a firm part of the relaxation program. I wish I could draw; I'm really getting into watercolors. I see abstract art in my future. Not for anything but just to do it, but it is so relaxing.
Anyway, more tomorrow.