I was smart today. I didn't take my PRN medication before I saw Dr. Mind or Dr. Body, so that they could see how lousy I really feel. Dr. Mind helped a great deal by helping me talk about all the new fears that have come up since the hospital. I have worksheets to help calm my thinking.
Dr. Body was awesome. I knew he wasn't going to love what I was going to ask him to do. I needed the Emsam increased, which isn't exactly something a family doctor does often. I also needed more meds for anxiety, which wouldn't be such a big deal if I weren't on so many. I needed refills on things he doesn't prescribe. I needed meds for heartburn, probably because I've drank like 3 gallons of orange juice since I got home. Etc. Thanks to having a good relationship with him and my honesty about not being able to be this depressed for 3 more weeks until Dr. Brain is back, he did all of it. Including giving me samples of Prilosec.
So, tomorrow I get my higher dose of the Emsam. That means the dietary restrictions become strict. I do not care. I just want to feel better.
At this point I'm just exhausted. I need to eat and go to sleep I think.
Probably no more tonight. We'll see, but I'm really exhausted. Too much stress.